2004-07-22 - 2:23 a.m.
A WEEK
Just one more week. I'm more nervous than ever. Not like cold feet or anything, just nervous about the whole thing. Having to be up in front of all these people. The more I think about it, the more I dislike the whole idea of having to do such a private thing, like declare your undying love to the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with, in front of a big group of people. Why do they need to see that? Damn nosey people.
But we've been so busy with the new house that we're barely even involved with the wedding planning anymore. Our Moms and Aunts and such have kinda taken over. By my count, it's been about three days since Charity and I have even mentioned the wedding to each other. We're very focused on the house.
Most of the hard work is done, all the painting and moving in furniture and all whatnots is over with. The past week or so I've been working on cleaning out my bedroom in my parents' house. I mean really cleaning it out. I had to pack stuff up when I went off to college, o' course, but my room back at home still had 70% of my things. It's the room that was always there waiting for me.
But not anymore. Now it's nearly empty, just my bed and my computer and some clothes are still here. All the rest of the stuff is in the new house. My parents use my computer on occasion, so we're not moving it over to the new house until we come back from our honeymoon. Maybe they'll get a cheap new one in the meantime. I hope so for their sake.
I like the new house, but it's still unfamiliar and strange. It sure looks nice, though. Charity did a really good job. As good as she is, and as much as she likes it, I sometimes feel bad that we're staying around here where there's really not a lot of money to be made in interior design. She made a lot of good contacts when she was in California for school, and I would have gone there if she wanted to move. But she was never really gung-ho about going back there, and then especially after her dad died I think she wanted to stay close to home.
The part I like most is that our bedroom looks almost exactly like the bedroom we had at our school house. Except a lot bigger. But in terms of how it's laid out, it's completely the same. The bathroom and closet doors are in the same places. The bathroom is really cool. The shower is all glass so you can see in. Sexy!
The coming days will be full of activity with rehearsals and rehearsal dinners and brunches and all of that. I wish it was all over, I just want to lay back with Charity and relax for a while. But we gotta rehearse and do all the last minute wedding stuff, and all the last minute house stuff, and all the packing for our trip. What a hassle. To be honest, I'm not entirely sure that she's worth all this aggravation.
I'll get another update in before the big day. Maybe the night before, since I surely won't be able to sleep. Buh bye.
